The scariest part in being loved by someone is the uncertainty that they may stop anytime.

But I have this innate feeling that since I can never loathe something one hundred percent...I must hold love for it. And with that I am going to have love for him for a very long time. I wish things could have changed magically. I don't want to live a lie..so I guess this has come to an end of either a illusional cycle of beginnings. I get really hollowed and contradictingly(real word?) sad inside. Last night , after the call I made s many thousands of times...I still didn't get that sense that this time if you gave him a chance he might change..things might actually go in your direction..then I glance momentarily into my future and realized because things might not actually change I can not ... give him another chance...I am losing energy and gaining death. Like I am spending energy writing this post bcause I feel like I need to release this stress from my chest and uplift my soul.

But then there is.....

especially my feelings. I wish I could say it before its all too late.

I have this tough exterior that seems to sabotage me and save me from the hurt that comes anyway. If life is love....When did life become so difficult? or maybe the simplicity of it all is just not setting well with me in this stage of life...or even less advanced ...I might not fully understand love...but can you ever? So many bad titles its received...can or will I ever come to know it at first chance without being judgmental about who and what love is.

I need to make my bed....or get in it.....

no no

I need to make my bed and make my life choices as much as possible.

sn: I want him back.But differently. I want him to be unpredictable....communicating....open-minded.....happy/positive...... humorous....non-secretive.....and everything else I had in mind....but i'm being selfish.

Psychedelic experience are only a glimpse of genuine mystical insight, but a glimpse which can be matured and deepened by the various ways of meditation in which drugs are no longer necessary or useful…psychedelic drugs are simply instruments, like microscopes, telescopes, and telephones. The biologist does not sit with eye permanently glued to the microscope, he goes away and works on what he has seen. --Alan Watts

10 Things I Want To Say To A Black Woman by Joshua Bennett

10 THINGS I WANT SAY TO A BLACK WOMAN
Joshua Bennett

I’d first like to say all women are beautiful from every nationality. This is nothing against any other nationality.

1. I wish I could put your voice in jar, wait for those lonely winter nights when I forget what God sounds like, run to the nearest maximum security prison and open it. Watch the notes that bounce off the walls like ricocheted bullets, punching keyholes into the sternums of every brother in the room, skeletons opening, rose blossom beautiful to remind you that the way to a black man’s heart is not through his stomach, it is through the heaven in your ‘hello’; the echo of unborn galaxies that pounces forth from your vocal cords, that melts ice grills into oceans, baptizing our lips, and so harsh words fade from our memories, and we forget why we stopped calling you divine in the first place.

2. When I was born my mother’s smile was so bright, it knocked the air from my lungs, and I haven’t been able to breathe right since. It’s something about the way light dances off your teeth, the way the moon gets jealous when you mock her crescent figure with the shape of your mouth. Queen, you make the sky insecure, self-conscious for being forced to stare at your face every morning and realize that the blues of her skin was painted by that symphony doing cartwheels on your tongue.

3. Who else can make kings out of bastards, turn a fatherless Christmas into a floor full of gifts and a kitchen that smells like the Lord is coming tomorrow, and we must eat well tonight. I used to think my sister was a blacksmith, the way she baked fire and metal and made kitchen miracles at fourteen, making enough food to feed a little boy who didn’t have the words to say how much she meant to him back then, or enough backbone to say so the day he turned twenty.

4. Your skin reminds me of everything beautiful I have ever known: the colour of ink on a page, the earth we walk on and the cross that hung my Saviour.

5. I’ve seen you crucified too, spread out on billboards to be spiritually impaled by millions of men with eyes like nails, who made mothers of your daughters; so I’m sorry for the music deals, for Justin Timberlake at the Superbowl, and that young man on the corner this morning, who made you undershade your flesh and become invisible. Never doubt, he only insults you because, men are confused. Now we are trained to destroy or conquer everything we see from birth.

6. If I ever see Don Imus in public I will punch him in the face, one time for every member of the Rutgers and Tennessee Women Basketball Teams. Then I’ll show him a picture of Phylicia Rashad, Assata Shakur, Arthur Kit, my mother, my grandmother and my seven-year-old niece, who’s got eyes like firebombs, and then dare him to tell me that black women are only beautiful in one shade of skin.

7. You are like a sunrise in a nation at war; you remind people that there is always something worth waiting up to.

8. When we are married I will cook, do the dishes and whatever else it takes to let you know that traditional gender roles have no place in the home we build; so my last name is an option, babysitting the kids a treat we split equally, and our bed will be an ancient temple where I construct altars of wax on the small of your back. We make love like the sky is falling, moving to the rhythm of bedsprings and Bell Biv DeVoe. Angels applauding in unison, saying this is the way it was meant to be.

9. My daughter will know her father’s face from the day she is born, and I can only pray that the superman complex lasts long enough for me deflect the pain this world will aim at her from the moment she is old enough to realize that the colour brown is still not considered human most places. But my daughter will have a smile like a wheelchair, and so even when I am at my worst, when the Kryptonite of this putrid planet threatens to render me grounded, the light dancing off of her teeth, will transform the shards of my broken body into heart-shaped blackbirds, taking flight on a wing that reminds me of my Saviour’s hands, my daughter’s smile, my mother’s laugh when I was in her womb.

10. Never stop pushing, this world needs you now more than ever…

Who taught you to hate the color of your skin? Who taught you to hate the texture of your hair? Who taught you to hate the shape of your nose and the shape of your lips? Who taught you to hate yourself from the top of your head to the soles of your feet? Who taught you to hate your own kind? Who taught you to hate the race that you belong to so much so that you don’t want to be around each other?

-malcolm x

Another Magical Man has Pasted Away....

His spoken word pieces of the 1970s are considered to have influenced what would later become the genres of hip-hop and neo-soul.

Read more: http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2011/05/28/gil-scott-heron-godfather-rap-dies-new-york-hospital/#ixzz1NceBE0hG

i'm not a supported of fox news though....

Gil Scott-Heron - 'Me And The Devil' (Official HD Video)

When there is nothing transformational that has ever changed the cycle of energy....you realize its dead. Dead things bring no life to those who participate in it.

The most crucial war....where casualties on either side are dangerous to SELF.

I just realized that I just need a lot of alone time.

ACTUALLY I AM LYING.

I knew for a while now that I needed alone time, I'm not really just realizing it.

Coming home that day and feeling like a big giant sack of poop and not having any energy to do anything but climb into the shower and roll into bed because I was and still am in dis-belief.

Learning.

Living.
Loving.

Leaning.

A l o n e.

Long Time

I mean to update this blog but I'm usually occupied with real life moments.

This blog was suppose to be a sort of release for me...a place where I could be real when real life seemed tobe a dark fantasy. It was also a semi-glimpse of who I am and what I aspire to be...in simply just being .....but I was wrong.

And it takes a some growing and a lot of lessons called mistakes to realize when you were wrong.

Were because you can sense when you might be going in the right direction which is often left in the shades of grey and blue....

I have changed nicely...I would think........I feel a bit calm amongst the drama that entices and tries to choke my life.....

My fortune cookie I had in Atlanta said " You will soon make a long overdue personal decision"

I believe I am making it.

There have been many a signs pointing to this moment of yesterday.

Its not as hard as I thought it would be ...because I know I have to do it.

I deserve I chance at happiness and supreme love.

If it is my energy I must change and channel than so be it. I must make some changes in my life...

I need positivity in my life..I need to grow....

I need to shift a lot of channels and create a sphere of plus signs creating a gate of protection from lies and deceit.

I say this as pure as possible..no influences at the current moment and not trying to appease to false depicters...I'm searching for the inner light under the pollution of unnaturality within society....I'll get there with the help of love....immense love of all around me....so for now...I'm just sliding through frozen time....this moment belongs to me....

Erykah Badu- Sometimes

I stopped asking why I get hurt. I stopped looking for who. I stopped asking where I went wrong. I stopped asking what did I do. I stopped asking when things would be better. I replaced all these with the most important question : How can I bring change [=

“It's not what we eat but what we digest that makes us strong; not what we gain but what we save that makes us rich; not what we read but what we remember that makes us learned; and not what we profess but what we practice that gives us integrity.”-SFB

look at me...

love thee.

form free

free formed head

mind of play doh

but i don't play though

unless

you have a yo-yo

word to ye-yo

When it gets dark enough, you can see the stars. - Charles A. Beard

You never find yourself until you face the truth.- Pearl Bailey

Major Lazer & La Roux - I'm Not Your Lemonade

Love, love is like a stubborn youth
That you'd rather just deny
I'm walking on a broken roof
While I'm looking at the sky

It's all false love and affection
You don't want me
You just like the attention
Yes it's all false love and affection
You don't like me
You just want the attention

(Chorus)
I'm not your toy
This isn't another girl meets boy x2


Love, love hides in a smoky light
And I can never find the truth
Boy, your touches leave me mystified
And I wish I could believe in you

Yes it's all false love and affection
You don't want me
You just like the attention
Yes it's all false love and affection
You don't like me
You just want the attention

I'm not your toy
This isn't another girl meets boy x3

It's all false love and affection
You don't want me
You just like the attention
Yes it's all false love and affection
You don't like me
You just want the attention

I'm not your toy
This isn't another girl meets boy x4

Vegetables...Boring?

So people always ask me, Shapel why are you a vegan? The truth is honestly I am not as vegan as I would love to be...NO I do not eat meat nor dairy but I do eat a lot of starch and grainy products. What I am saying is that you can not claim to be a vegetarian nor vegan with your diet consisting of nothing near 50% of vegetables. Thats right just because you are not a meat eater does not make you a wholly veggie eater. So what I am saying is I chose to increase my vegetable/fruit intake because:

1. When I eat fruits I feel happy..like literally when I eat fruits I feel a surge of energy come throughout my being. I feel all the positive vibes floating throughout my being and my face shows it.
2. Eating animals means my body is literally a walking cemetery. I have carcasses inside of the very temple I am suppose to use to live and create light. Yet I have darkness and death setting in my core.
3. The way animals are killed is with no sacrifice nor thankfulness it is with pure evil and over consumption. The meat market has not heart nor any reason behind the ruthless killing. When there is spirituality in actions their is no truth or justice.
4. Green is whats good for the body. We must intake light for light...
5. Vegetables never get boring so many colors so many different properties and flavors for advancing my physical,emotional and mental planes.

With that said and so much more I still want to say..I'll end this post with the fact that I am working harder to show you exactly how a person on foods with light love and nature looks,acts,feels, etc like. So I will intact 70% vegetables this summer every day. . . Stay tuned!
The world is a dangerous place to live; not because of the people who are evil, but because of the people who don't do anything about it. -Albert Einstein

Amazing world - full of beauty

"Change your thoughts and you change your world!"- Norman Vincent Peale

"Nothing is worth more than this day"- Goethe

prettty pretty =]

One Day My Hair Will Be This Long =]

How To Make a Clementine Candle from maxwell gillingham-ryan on Vimeo.

Cheapalicious: Nifty under $50: Nude pumps for darker skin tones...

Cheapalicious: Nifty under $50: Nude pumps for darker skin tones...: "Q: I have been a fan of your site for a long time now and I love it, keep up the good work! I'm looking for a nice pair of inexpensive nude..."

I actually love this picture....loook at Jay Z !

Pelly

• The name of Pelly creates an overly-sensitive nature which causes you to sense and feel far more than you can understand or put into words.
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• You have a deep, artistic, and creative side which shows through a love for music and literature.
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• Writing is a more natural mode of expression for your deeper thoughts and feelings than the spoken word.
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• You have an ability to concentrate and work intently on anything which holds your interest.
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• However, you prefer to avoid routine, monotony, and mental tasks.
• Although the name Pelly creates an active mind and a restless urge to explore new ideas, we emphasize that it limits self-expression and friendly congeniality with a moody disposition.
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• This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the solar plexus, heart, lungs and bronchial area.

Shapel

• Your first name of Shapel gives you an independent, serious, reticent, and studious nature.
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• An intellectual, you have a deep appreciation for art, music, literature, and all the phenomena of nature.
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• You express your thoughts and feelings best through writing rather than verbally.
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• In fact, others find it challenging to understand you as you do not reveal your innermost thoughts unless you are completely comfortable in your friendships.
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• For that reason, despite having good business abilities, you like to work alone or where you are making your own decisions.
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• It has created separateness from others and loneliness in your life.
• Although the name Shapel creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it limits self-expression and friendly congeniality with a moody disposition.
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• This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the heart, lungs, bronchial area, worry, and mental tension.

Beamer by KiingDonPellyoso

This is a picture I just sketched real quick ..on a day that was supposed to be dedicated to homework. But I decided its time for me to stop focusing strictly on academia and give way to the other things in life that are just as important such as skill. I am passionate about drawing and I am simply in love with art and all its form. So this is Beamer. I created her at first because I am going through the phase where you question your nappy and happy hair...in an environment where all is straight,"bad" and model-type...where does natural and nappy come into play. I am at the weird stage in which I do not know exactly how I feel about my locs anymore but I do know this was partially expected....I mean truthfully I am only at my 7th month but it will be my 8th soon....and I guess I am selfishly and impatiently wishing and hoping for immature growth....and that is not the truth. The truth is what I strive for... So Beamer..is my pledge to be free in a sense ...to recognize roots and to be REAL. To portray and exude light and to take light all i from around her. A winged creature is on her eye because I realized with right sight......you can go to outer limits.

JAMAICA QUEENS!

Neighborhood ID: Jamaica Queens from michael mcintosh on Vimeo.

Damian Marley-Still searching

Some girl in the twinkling of an eye
Dem ah ready fi come pull down mi Karl Kani
Oh, come on now tell me how can I
Love ah, one dat really don't deserve me?

Natural fi keep and natural preserve me
Me is ah boy, could get a whole heep ah girl, ya heard me
Many are called but only few deemed worthy
Body have ta physically strong and sturdy

Spiritually balanced fi clean and purge me
Mentally advanced fi always urge me
Read couple books and challenge the clergy
Read a couple psalms up inna the morning early

Could you be so kind then show me a sign
I've been searching and it's so hard to find
Decent values with a decent wine
Decent jubee running it down the line

Maybe it's my mind, maybe I'm blind
Maybe it's the way that I've been spending my time
I'm still searching for a fine peace of mind
Decent jubee running it down the line

A little child has grown and he's got love on his mind
But what he'll never know a virtuous woman is hard to find
And dat's when she said she feels the pain
And she'll never fall in love again

So if you is a gal with whole heep of value
What a valuable nice and decent gal you
When I get you I'll be glad I got you
Then stand firmly inna your life like statue

Seen some old tings seen some young tings
Seen some little silly go and come tings
Seen some one night just for fun tings
What a indecent piece ah, some ting

Be so kind den show me a sign
I've been searching and it's so hard to find
Decent values with a decent wine
Decent jubee running it down the line

Maybe it's my mind, maybe I'm blind
Maybe it's the way that I've been spending my time
I'm still searching for a fine peace of mind
Decent jubee running it down the line

Some say that love is blind
But he keep saying, not this time
So all he need is love to keep his heart in line
But dat's when she said, "Lord I feel the pain"
And she'll never fall in love again

You have some gal ah, come 'pon man premises
And ah, fling up the ting that's between di knees
And ah, full up man head with false promises
Oh, dutty bungle please, couldn't want to run that
So fast wid ease been there dun that my main
Squeeze is natural, simply natural

Could you be so kind then show me a sign
I've been searching and it's so hard to find
Decent values with a decent wine
Decent jubee running it down the line

Maybe it's my mind, maybe I'm blind
Maybe it's the way that I've been spending my time
I'm still searching for a fine peace of mind
Decent jubee running it down the line

A little child has grown and he's got love on his mind
But what he'll never know a virtuous woman is hard to find
'Cause that's when she said she's feeling pain
It seems they have fallen in love again
That's when she said, "Lord I feel the pain"
And now they're standing in love again

So tell me ah, when price tag gone pon annany
Gal ah, love man for Benz and Ferrari
Little one eyed brethren weh name Omari
Couldn't get no loving since him start sell stary

Some girl in the twinkling of an eye
Dem ah ready fi come pull down mi Karl Kani
Oh, come on now tell me how can I
Love ah, one dat really don't deserve me?

And this goes both ways...as in how to get a guy....Be Natural

Verbal conflict is a waste of word Physical conflict is a waste of flesh

It makes no sense to argue any position. The way you feel strongly about one thing someone out there feels just as strongly about the next...We are not judges out to deliberate cases and we cannot say justly what is good and bad about others beliefs. Although I believe we should try very hard to always act in right action. Don't argue. Your spirit is strong and those are fights that are not worthy of titles. Just as fighting physically is stupid and the strength of the body is small in comparison to the strength of the wise mind and the loving soul. . .Treat your body with unfailing love and nourish it with pure sunlight. Eat for energy. Eat for love and understanding.

I don't want to fight anymore. I'm tired and I have been tired so long. I feel myself awakening though it is slowly. I do not want to judge and I don't want to be so involved in others doings that I lose sight of what truly matters. What truly matters? Love and authenticity. For now that is what my prime focus is on.

Marvin Gaye - Distant Lover

Today was Mixed Drinks Day In The Cafe...But I Wanted Orange Juice.

Today was a great day ! Had fun and no classes...I've been stressed lately. The stress is going down a lot and that's a good thing.=] I am happy and excited about my community service tomorrow and I should probably be taking my behind to the bed well actually to my room to clean up because I refuse to sleep one more night in such a pigsty(its actually not that bad but I'm a bit OCD)! So.....

God knows I miss him.

Daily activities allow me to take my mind off....and happily this all doesn't seem that rough....LOL.

1. I AM TOO YOUNG and FUN for nonsense.

And thus soon this will be a flicker of a memory of young lust.....

My definition of love is very screwed....at the moment....

my definition of a lot of things are screwed.....=\

Re-Evaluate, Shapel.

Please let me have a house that may resemble something close to this....at least let me have books and a small little resting place. This is so wonderful. ... I love to read

Instructions

things you'll need:

• 1 cup brewed coffee
• 2 cups leave-in hair conditioner
• 2 tbsp. coffee grounds
• Bowl
• Spoon

Suggest Edits

1. • 1

     Make one cup of black coffee as normal. When finished, place the coffee into the refrigerator to chill.

   • 2

     Mix the 2 cups of leave-in conditioner with the 2 tbsp. of ground coffee and the cold brewed coffee in a bowl, stirring well with the spoon.

   • 3

     Massage the mixture into your dry hair as you would any "regular" hair dye. Leave it in for one hour or as long as you see fit.

   • 4

     Rinse out the dye with warm water.

Read more: How to Make Coffee Dye | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/how_6402197_make-coffee-dye.html#ixzz1JYWIxpK1

I love birds oh so very much and if I could have an owl...I think I would just fall out and die..


I will be getting a canary...definitely again!

and hopefully berry berry soon.

Negative thinking don't you waste your thoughts

Why think about something bad and harmful when you can spend your love energy on something positively promoting. Devote oneself to peace and happiness. Think Good. So all around you...will BE good. Waste not and you shall want not. So today and every day after this moment I will spend as positive as possible. I will be better than the last day until the days blend and I could not tell or read a bad thought if I saw it. I will be a shield blocking all negative energy and only accepting good vibes.

Me and Clarke almost won some tickets to Six Flags but I was cursed because of my New York upbringing...but all is well. . . I'm still the bomb diggidity.!

When I tell you I adore,admire,love,cherish this man....I tell you no lie...

http://www.rastafarispeaks.com/Selassie/SelfHelp.html

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The people themselves must come to realize their own difficulties in the development of their community and try to solve them by collective participation following an order of priority and taking their potentiality into account.

It is well known to you all that recognizing one's problems and striving hard to challenge them is a mark of an attempt at self-sufficiency. Self help in the benefits to be acquired through education, will save the individual from asking someone's assistance.

DEVELOPMENT

Although the beginnings of civilization of each country vary in time, the fundamental factors which gave impetus to each country to awaken and embark on the road to progress to reach their present level of development, are those qualities which are enshrined in the nature of man, namely desire and fortitude.

The partner who places his own short-range ambitions ahead of the long-range interests of the partnership has embarked on a course which will ultimately result in the dissolution of the partnership itself.

It is by the understanding of past difficulties that we can bequeath fundamental guidance which would be of pride to the coming generations we therefore urge our people to struggle and to make sacrifices for those things which will enable them to ameliorate their conditions of life and leave a richer heritage.

Economic Development

Where enterprise and initiative are not lacking, the pace at which the growth of a country's economy normally proceeds can be quickened or slackened by global developments far or near. In our effort to raise the living Standard of our beloved people, in our endeavour to bring prosperity to our country, the feeling of cooperation and understanding has always characterized our people.

A special case is the recent development in certain provinces where the people are seen voluntarily raising funds to build schools, clinics, roads and similar other projects. What can give one more pleasure than to see such a measure of self-help in one's life time, for the prosperity and progress of his own country? Let every citizen of our empire strive hard to strengthen this espirit de corps everywhere.

We entrust the spirit of good-will to our people to work diligently and cooperatively in order to arrive at the realization of this socioeconomic development that has been launched by either our government or our people. You have a rich land that yields a variety of products, do not be contented with the satisfaction of your bare needs but instead, cultivate your land among others with oleogenous plants, the seeds of which you can export for your greater benefit. Use the forest woods to make furniture and implements and exchange them for money. Your workmanship will be a monument to your name.

One should realize that thriftiness is the basis for the accumulation of wealth and the economic growth of a nation. One seldom minimizes the value of money earned by the sweat of the brow however small it may be, but for the extravagant even a huge amount of money is worthless.

The co-operative movement has long been known throughout the world, and we Ourself have on numerous occasions urged Our people to join increasingly in cooperative enterprises.

Co-operatives must, ultimately, play a highly important role in the growth of our economy, and no time can be lost in availing ourselves of the benefits to be derived from therm During the past year, we decided upon a programme designed to provide specific encouragement to the creation of agricultural co-operatives, and a number of Government-sponsored co-operatives, farms have been established by Our Ministry of National Community Development. We have provided lands, agricultural machinery and expert assistance to these farms and we entertain high hopes that their success will spur Our people to embark increasingly upon co-operative endeavours. Should Our people fail to avail themselves of this opportunity, the consequences will be regrettable indeed.

Community Development

The fundamental purpose of a community development movement is to teach the rural people of Our Empire that through cooperative self-help and a united approach to common problems, the vast potential for their own self-improvement which they themselves represent, can be translated into effective programmes which can do much to improve their standard of living.

Social Development

Lasting progress can only be built on deep and enduring foundations. When a solid foundation is laid, if the mason is able and his materials good, a strong house can be built.

To develop oneself, one has to develop one's own initiative and perseverance - a man has to strive in order to grow. Let us work out our own programmes in all fields - political, economic, social and military. Man's contributions which live to influence the life and progress of posterity, are the most permanent monuments that can ever be created. We must become increasingly willing to analyze our efforts, to experiment, to admit our failures as we take pride in our successes.

RENT A RASTA from cinepobre.com on Vimeo.

Must watch ....again and again!

good doc!

Immense Respect Heighten =]

Vexation of spirit is a waste of time...

Vexation of spirit is a waste of time

We cannot be worried about what is initially not in our control in the first place. To be annoyed and frustrated is quite ridiculous because we do not have control. This is an egotistic idea of the the human being having control of the soul and spirit which is one. The soul I believe to be the core of the spirit. No such things as bad souls. So bad spirits are those caught astray. The fact that we do become annoyed and frustrated when we think things are not going our way..( the notion of our way is silly) the way is collective....the individual is still the collective. The annoyance shows us still how small our problems and wants are...how much control we actually do not have.

Do not let your spirit lie in negativity. Be free. But cautiously notice that freedom comes restrictions. There are no limitations when freedom has been taken place but the restrictions occur when you decide rightfully to stay on one plane of the energy pole....positivity. Restrict yourself strictly from negativity of things for yourself and all else will fall in place when it comes to others.

Keep These Words In Mind

Vexation of spirit is a waste of time
Negative thinking don't you waste your thoughts
Verbal conflict is a waste of word
Physical conflict is a waste of flesh
People will always be who they want
And that's what really makes to world go round
Unconditional love is scarce

'Till shiloh I shall not forsake thee
Now and forever more, forever more, forever more, YEAH

You see, you gave preciuos life to me
So I live my life for you.... you..
You see, you've always been there for me
And so I'll be there for you..... you...

'Till shiloh I shall not forsake thee

Bless your eyes and may your days be long
May you rise on the morning
When his kingdome come
Good deeds aren't remembered in the hearts od men

'Till shiloh I shall not forsake thee
Now and forever more, forever more, forever more

You see, you've always had faith in me
And so I'll have faith in you.... you...
You've always been there for me
And so I'll be there for you.... you...
You've always been good to me
Even when I'm not good to myself
You've always been fair to me
Even when I'm not fair to myself
You've always done right by me
So I'll do right by you.... you...

'Till shiloh I shall not forsake thee

You've always been there for me mama
And so I'll be there for you papa
You've always been fair to me brother
And so I'llbe fair to you sister
You've always had faith in me
And so I'll have faith in you.... you...
You've always been good to me
You've always been kind to me
You've always stood up for me
You've always been there for me
You've always been.... oooooohh
You've always been.... oooooohh
You've always did care for me... yeh
You always did share with me.... yeh
You always been true to me
And so I'll be true to you...

Will be happily collecting some next week =]

I saw some in the Farmer's Market but I didn't get =[

but no worries.....soon come =D

Hey don't save your kisses - just pass 'em around
You'll find my reason - is logically sound
Who's gonna know that you past them around
A hundred years from today
And why crave a penthouse - that's fit for a queen
You're nearer heaven - on mamma Earth's green
If you had millions - what would they all mean
One hundred years from today

Bittersweet, Kanye West (Def Poetry Jam, 2005)

Bittersweet, Kanye West (Def Poetry Jam, 2005)

Bittersweeeeeet,

You’re gonna be the death of me
I don’t want you, but I need you,
I love you and hate you at the very same time

See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad
Never did this before, that’s what the virgin says
We’ve been generally warned, that’s what the surgeon says
God talk to me now this is an emergency

And she claim she only with me for the currency,
You cut me deep bitch cut me like surgery
And i was too proud to admit that it was hurting me
I’d never do that to you, at least purposely

We breaking up again
We making up again
But we don’t love no more
I guess we fucking then

Have you ever felt you ever want to kill her?
And you mixed them emotions with Tequila?
And you mix that with a little bad advice
On one of them bad nights y’all have a bad fight
And you talkin about her family her aunts and shit
And she say motherfucker your mama’s a bitch
You know domestic drama and shit
All the attitude
I’ll never hit a girl but I’ll shake the shit out of you

But I’ma be the bigger man
Big pimpin’ like Jigga man.
Oh, I guess I figure it’s

Bittersweeeeet,
You’re gonna be the death of me
I don’t want you, but I need you,
I love you and hate you at the very same time

See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad
Never did this before, that’s what the virgin says
We’ve been generally warned, that’s what the surgeon says
God talk to me now, this is an emergency

And my n-ggas said I shouldn’t let it worry me
I need to focus on the girls we getting currently
But I been thinking and it got me back to sinking and this relationship it even got me back to drinkin and this Hennessy
Is gonna be the death of me
And I always thought that you havin my child was our destiny
But I cant even vibe with you sexually
Cuz everytime that I try you will question me
Saying you fucking them girls disrespecting me?
You don’t see how your lies is affecting me
You don’t see how life was suppose to be
And I never let a n-gga get that close to me
And you ain’t cracked up to what you was suppose to be
You always gone you always be were them hoes will be
And this the first time she ever spilled her soul to me
I fucked up and I know it G
I guess it’s bittersweet poetry…

The Man's Guide To Love #244B from themansguidetolove on Vimeo.

I hope you are satisfied 
ignorant
to the fact
that I am up waiting-
and praying
silently hoping
that you're thinking about me.
If I could just think of one thing other than you
I would
but I can't
the truth of the matter was that 
I mean the truth of the matter is 
this is the one time I was knocked off my beam of justice and love
and how
how could they say all is fair in love and war
when this fight was not equally balanced
my strength became weak at the the weeks
it takes for you to just respond and say hi
whats up
hows it going
and even then thats not enough
because 
for you it doesn't feel like it matters
and maybe I should move on
and stop
singing this same old sad love song.....

Young cat, if you keep your eyes open enough, oh, the stuff you would learn! The most wonderful stuff!

http://livelaughlovelocs.tumblr.com/post/3945614315/jaeboogie-promise-nothing-just-do-what-you-most

Promise Nothing
Just do what you most enjoy doing.
Hidden benefit: You will always over-deliver.

Offer Nothing
Just share what you have with those who express an interest in it.
Hidden benefit: Takes the pressure off of wanting other people to see you as valuable or important.

Expect Nothing
Just enjoy what you already have. It’s plenty.
Hidden benefit: You will realize how complete your life is already.

Need Nothing
Just build up your reserves and your needs will disappear.
Hidden benefit: You boundaries will be extended and filled with space.

Create Nothing
Just respond well to what comes to you.
Hidden benefit: Openness.

Hype Nothing
Just let quality sell by itself.
Hidden benefit: Trustability.

Plan Nothing
Just take the path of least resistance.
Hidden benefit: Achievement will become effortless.

Learn Nothing
Just let your body absorb it all on your behalf.
Hidden benefit: You will become more receptive to what you need to know in the moment.

Become No One
Just be more of yourself.
Hidden benefit: Authenticity.

Change Nothing
Just tell the truth and things will change by themselves.
Hidden benefit: Acceptance

Claim:   Lightning strikes have killed people who were talking on the telephone.

Status:   True. 

Origins: Lightning ranks second only to floods in storm-related deaths in the United States. On average, 73 people are killed by it each year. Not even tornadoes or hurricanes top it in terms of lives lost.

Ego Vs The Soul