"We know only two realities: the one around us and the one within us.
The first reality is the universe and the second reality is the life of the psyche.

Communication from the first to the second is effected through the senses in the messages which they register; while communication from the second to first is made through action- action which enables us to project our forces into the outside world and to observe the consequences."--Réne Huyghe.

Honestly who can blame the cool kids. I guess. What constitutes you as the judge on what they can do or cannot do. Lifestyles of the lost and blameless..

so how am i feeling as of now.....uncertain as if there was no life to actually live...

Awh man Reggie really let the light shine in him tonight. His sermon was so good and like Dean Carter said it was so so powerful. Baggage Check. I am still working on introspection on my wants and my needs and my duties. There are many things I have to find the strength to let go and many people who I must say good day too and many things I must say hello. Life is a final exam and I simply don't wanna pass it ...

Grand Puba - I Like It

Butter - A Tribe Called Quest

Your whole appearance is a lie and it could never be true
And if you really loved yourself then you would try and be you

Eric B. & Rakim - Keep The Beat

I really love myself. Something beautiful. No boy nor girl can gas me up or bring me down. A lot of people can not say this ..because they are not willing to let their self be a pure reflection of the Creator and by no means am I perfect. I am a hue-man and no I have never claimed to be any more or any less. But. There is something more...being a hue-man allows yourself to range. You have a choice to be certain colors. True Colors will glow.

turn your lights down low...
and please
wait-
turn those lights down low...
can't go any lower...
but we can take this love a little slower.
let me take the time
to taste your beauty and spirit.
let me hear it.
your heart.
don't stop.
never
that.
keep going.
but go slow.
cause i'm getting to know.
me while i'm trying to get inside of
us.
all about you.
all about you.
the lights revolve and shine
all around you.
its something all about you.
its something
everything
that i dreamed of with my eyes open.
and as my token
of appreciation
come
touch
me
and feel that sensation
of me
breaking it down
and us building it up.

and they all so founded...they all so grounded...talking all deep...i guess ya'll sounded.

old but i love [=

CAUSE I SIMPLY CAN'T PITY MYSELF>>>>>>

Yeah , actually your 2 cents is NOT needed sometimes. 
I may not be perfect but who gives you the right to actually dictate everything I do as wrong. . . or needs to be brushed up on...


you got that much conscious.
you that much degree.
that much correct-ness.
oh
okay.




but I won't go off. 






cause I put on. [=

 Now we can end the story right here, but shortie didn't quit...there was something in the air.

Boy you so Beautiful.
Boy you oh so beautiful.
Let me take..you down...
and bring you up...
let me make you cup
full
up to the top.
I won't stop...
loving the way you skin and smile seems to
glitter and gleam
and how your eyes scream....
come come...
to you....
open you up
and show you...
how only god can truly give you a good time...
a union so special
immediately we'll click
at the final destination
and we can overstand all situations.
Love.

I did that [=

Who would of thought...Shapel would be up at 4 something in the morning dealing with Spelman sisters. Its sweet like cake I guess. Although I am extremely tired and well aware of the day I have ahead of me...this is truly a beautiful ceremony. Maybe its the candles or maybe its Sister's Chapel.

On an another note I need to get my drink on before 7:04am.

Where is that lady telling me I had to get my shirt between 6am and 6:30am!?!? :(

I'm too tired to type...now.

LOVED THIS MOVIE>>>>>>>>> ahh!

Ardent Presents: Valerie June - "Raindance"

If only I ruled the world...I'd free all my s u n s

Baby it gets no better than this...

finally I have time to sit and think. I wish I wouldn't fall in love and feel helpless and hopeless. I just wanna chill...in the dark with the light of the t.v. possessed by the cathode ray tube for a moment in that mirror called time...maybe I should have waited...longer...should be less stronger...

you can't tame roaches or emotions...but i'm sick of floating.

love.

HOLD THAT BEAT.

Really hurt my feelings but its okay, i'm sure i'll re-up...i don't even want him to miss a little when i'm gone... but bless him.

He played me like Uno....

and then He Unoed Me...=\

I got my top back
And yeah my hoods off
So you can witness shapel
A true boss
at all cost and
No I never loss
And yes its
Cause I'm Special
Big mac sauce
Big poppa's
Ready
Flow steady
Daddy's Home
Come and get me
Bedtime stories
No happy endings
See imma finish
The mess you started

Fact: I use to have a BIG *big sean voice* crush on that Nerd under this font right here...lol

Lol. That's all I have been doing these past two days. :) its a great thing to actually be able to smile and laugh uncontrollably. The museum was really fun , I love the MET and then Alice's Tea Cup one of my favorite little spots. Today was a good day. Yesterday was a good day and Tomorrow will be even better.

sn: thuglife makes me laugh so much and its a great thing....for now [:

August 11th 2010.

Misconceptions of my reality..

Recollections of my identity...

or what I thought was mine...

How I thought it was fine...

to just shout and whine

and point my fingers

and drop the focus

out of my palms.

How was it okay to have alms and act calm?

-when honestly

deep down inside

I felt the tide

turn and toss

try to become my boss.

But the cost was too expensive.

and My soul was looking too pensive...

my actions

inactively vindictive...

and me predicting that all of this will have an outcome

of pure positivity.

and I drown myself in oils and preach livity.

But I'm livid see

I am baffled times three

at how you could not care about me and I put you before the TT.

i look like a light skin crackhead...thanks.

As Told BY Jasmyn....

• Me: I hate skinny people. Showing their stomachs looking all cute
• Shapel: That's like saying I hate fat people because their fat.
• Me: Right that's how some people feel.
• Shapel: Fat people can show their stomachs.
• Me: Don't no body want to see all that.
• Shapel: I bet there is. There is somebody out there just waiting to see all that.
• Me: UGH they're probably creepy.

Slum Village - Reunion (Ft. J Dilla)(Prod. By Black Milk) | Music Video

Lovingggg this Hair *3

I love thee hair.

I la la love working out it gives me chillls and thrillls and I don't have to wear frills...I glow like Mr. Sun and I feel the Earth..I'm energy-full and ready to go....I feel so good...I do it for me=]

Xiomara always says I look like a Doe. lol

No Makeup.

only cause i know i'm a knockout....spiritually and mentally...