i just got my permit..=] finally,

gibbermiss

6ft over the top .

Ego trippin'

Pride sippin'

popping pills

and laughing none stop.

But don't think its the normalcy thats got me this way.

Don't think its my Lucky Birthday.

I'm high off the atom

that I sniffed and got caught in my brain.

Geekin out crazier than that man on the F train.

I breathe some strong ish.

Some realness..some thing that could kill fish..

only to make them fly higher than exponents of ten.

And then

give me a smooch .

Princess and the frog .

Kiss on my lips.

I might have to throw in some more equations so they can get their height up .

Cause I'm way higher , 7x flyer and 3x lethal if you multiply her.

Divide her and she would knock your boots off.

As for teams, I leave that to people who are looking to win,

I just want to see who and what is at the end.

jive turkey.

Friday

I have decided to renovate my room in New York. I will be living here longer than I had presumed. To be real I do not want to leave my grandmother all alone and I will not have money for all those bills if I was to be thrown out after college lol. So I am thinking that I will have Gold walls , Green carpet , White flat LCD t.v. , wall decor and decals of birds on trees, plant life and a tall bookcase. I want a serene paradise feel.

I will put before and after pictures up soon hopefully.

As for now I must decide to get my lazy behind up and clean =[

I feel like the Turkey =\

Don't nobody want no broke heart....

Again and again I let feelings go ahead of my reason and rational.

Don't nobody want no two timing loser...

=[

Ain't nobody gonna love you like are , If you take whatever he brings your way.

Thanksgiving is

highly emotional.

I almost wish I was heartless.

I gave this so much of me. ME. I put a lot of thought , pain , soul ,sweat and tears in to this.

I am ready to sign these papers like Usher said .

Ohh ...Ohhhh...

Papers.

Ohhh..Ohhh.

I know its gonna be some more ish tonight.

...

My friends can't recognize me!

Cause I took a chance on LOVE , its like I'm dying...

For you I gave my heart <3

Been through so much drama ....

I took all I could take and you leave me no option...

THIS SONG SPEAKS and its on REPEAT.

no one will read this except me. =\

rain rain go away

come again another...matter of fact come again in the next two years!
So apparently , I am in a war with Hurrican Ida. She is winning, my hair is a mess and I am a like a wet little dog roaming around campus.
Now I am with Danielle in Computer Science looking crazy and about to get beat up because we messed this girl's beat up.

okay maybe I fibbed...a little.

Receiving this text from this person , I just realized I have some things to get off my chest.
This love thing...all five Ws and How.

Webster's definition:
Main Entry: 1love
Pronunciation: \ˈləv\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English lufu; akin to Old High German luba love, Old English lēof dear, Latin lubēre, libēre to please
Date: before 12th century
1 a (1) : strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties (2) : attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3) : affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests b : an assurance of love
2 : warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion
3 a : the object of attachment, devotion, or admiration b (1) : a beloved person : darling —often used as a term of endearment (2) British —used as an informal term of address
4 a : unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another: as (1) : the fatherly concern of God for humankind (2) : brotherly concern for others b : a person's adoration of God
5 : a god or personification of love
6 : an amorous episode : love affair
7 : the sexual embrace : copulation
8 : a score of zero (as in tennis )

after reading all of this...I realize who is this Webster guy that we go all crazy for , which eventually leads me to

Noah Webster , A religious "magician" from Europe who ended up in America.

He was a magician because he got us all to believe what he believes and it is now the standard of English language.

Now before I get carried away , which I sometimes tend to do , let me get back to my pre-recorded show.

Love.

Love.

L o v e.

L

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L o v e.

love.

LOVE

I do not know what love is between humans, for what I have been told it hasn't been looking to great. Love is blind , love is selfish and love is true. Oh and how can I forget that Love doesn't wait for anyone. So here we have the one thing that every soul is craving for : a blind , selfish, truthful and impatient force. I doubt I am the only one who is fearful of this "beautiful" monster.

The only love I knew was Loucee.*

My pet Parakeet. ( *-this is not Loucee but I be darn it sure looks like her )

I guess you can kind of say I was always a focused child. Nerdy perhaps , geek not fully , cute but of course! Barely any boys have ever caught my eye. There minimal nonsenses always got in the way of me paying a dime of attention to them and their foolish ways. Alas , this was not true for many but most.

I've talked to a boy here and there and amazingly might have found myself able to tolerate them in one whole hour. Until...

they mess it up.

or perhaps , I mess it up with my foolish ways of trying to be Ms. Goody 3 Shoe and Crew.

Maybe I should have acted upon my gut instincts with some of the male species I sauntered upon. The may not want only one thing but the bottom line is that they still want it. I know you ALL know what I am talking about. Can I get an Amen , Holla-Lew-YA , or a Buddhist chant in the crowd?

Fast Forward

I've just realized with this text message I received that my frist boyfriend and I had almost zilch in common. I won't say its love per say but I did like him and besides could I really live an " American Dream " without a boyfriend for eighteen years.

-_- enough is enough.

I need to get my life together.

Now this time you will not read from me until I get some things in order.

Au toodles.

Tuesdays

Here at Spelman College ,

I have been losing tracks of things. I use to love to take pictures,read books and eat from pure life. I can barely keep my head on straight now. Finally eighteen and "legal" , whatever thats suppose to mean. Tired is my middle name and I've adopted the habit of being pushed pass the limit. I am slowly and surely destroying myself. Since I have come to this sudden realization , I will cease all these acts of destruction. I am a hue man. I need to rest and I can not be expected to act as if I were a robot or some other lifeless being. As I was sitting here researching information for my ADW paper , I said to myself " Self , you should post a blog " My self said " Yeah you should." So thats what I did. ( Selena would get this!)

Speaking of Selena , I need to call Ms. Keddy and Ms.Levine back! I miss New York slightly. I do not know if it is New York I miss or if it is the monotonous daily events that take place in Atlanta that makes everything seem so bad. When I cam home for Fall Break I was beyond happy. Time literally flew by me , I felt as if I stepped off the plane only to turn around and get back on.

Good thing Thanksgiving is coming up, I do not know why I would be so excited seeing that I am a vegan =\. But breaks = time with family +time with friends. =D!

I am a godmother to Xiomara's beautiful babygirl=D! Her name was suppose to be Shapel. Secretly. But thats fine I'll just call her Shapel to the second power or something of that sort.

Well as cut up and all over the place that this blog is I shall get back to work.
I am so exhausted.

yoodles.

Barack Hussein Obama is the 44th President of

The United States of America.

I was at Howard University in Washington , DC on January 20th 2009 when Mr. Obama became President Obama. I cried. I sighed and smiled. Standing ovations and clapping hands was found all over America on this day.

I went to DC on the 18th and stayed at Howard University and on MLK day I went to the Refresh the World Symposium. So many stars were there : P Diddy , Queen Latifah , Shaka Zulu , Ludacris , MC Lyte , Spike Lee (Host) , Rosario Dawson and many more. The morning of this day I saw Bowwow in the diner we were eating at called Wilsons. He took a picture with my friends and I.

I did not go to school today but I will be in school tomorrow and I have loads to catch up on.

P&B ,

shapelL.

01162009.

So today I woke up feigning to go to school and stuff and then I opened my door and jumped yes literally jumped my burnt yellow behind back in bed. Today Notorious came out!!! I am so excited. But anyways I went to sleep for a long time and then woke up like SUPERman. I'm ready to go see Notorious and now I have to persuade my Grandma to let me go because in all sense the movie is held inside and I'm sure it will be hot. My friend is getting me and Neesha in for free.99 or $ 5 never know with this strange cookie. This weekend shall be eventful. Blessed is what I am and will continue to be as long as I stay in the enlightened path. Thank you , Higher Being for everything.