You're mad cause my style you're admiring,

Don't be mad...UPS is hiring,

Hollis to Hollywood but is he good?,

I guess like the jeans...Uhh,

Now...don't you get suspicious,

Grant your wishes everytime,

Breaking dishes when I bust a rhyme,

I know one thing the whole world least expected,

Word up don't rap no crap you bore me,

Wanna grab my dick...too lazy...hold it for me,

I'm straight that great plus the heads straighten dreads,

I'm everlasting like the toe on Pro Keds,

A tech nine,

When I rhyme,

Plus I climb,

Word is bind,

FunTimes in TheDay

Me and Crystal sn: Shapel where is that hat =[

<3*>

The end of the greatest College Tour=]

Walking around in Morgan State

College Tour With Angelica and Domo and Onisha in the back lmao

Coming from Marcus house in NJ , currently making jokes with Dhoruba.

Kristen,August,Domo,Jihan and I at the Dodge Dinner Awards :)

Still Lost age:12 or 13

My Mother: Ramona Lisa

I could go on about a lot of things in life. How its great. How its unfair. But then would I be living? My mother Ramona Lisa is one of the most beautiful people in the world. She truly is. See, my mother has been sick for a long time. I never told people. Not because I was/am ashamed because I'm not. I never told them because I never wanted the pity that inevitably comes from a story like mine. Shapel is going to make it and she is bound to do things great because I have a natural love for the people. I love my mother a whole lot. Since I'm doing this blog as a sort of healing and truth seeking thing I've decided to share a lot about my life. Maybe it can help someone else or maybe it can better me. Who Knows.

Back to my mother...

My mother was a Dental Hygenist and she had me at the age of 26. My mother had been sick since her late teenage, early adulthood years. After having me and having her mother die when I was 2 years old led her into a deep deep depression. Although she got out of it..she never really recovered. My mother raised me up until I was about 6 or 7 years old although my family especailly my great-grandmother and cousin Fatima were always in the picture. On my birthday when I was ten years old my mother's sickness kicked in full time. Someone saw and since that day my mother has been in the ever so loving American Government system care.

I have seen this beautiful person cry,scream,get angry,laugh uncontrollably,yell, be afraid of everyone,etc. America has drugged my mother. I have seen my mother have a glazed stare and can't feed herself...and let the food slide from her lips to her chin and then onto her shirt. *These are some of the effects of a person suffering mentally and having manic depression.*


It has changed me..a lot.

I don't like hospitals, I don't like doctors, I don't like
medicine.

I always feel responsible and I promised that when I get situated and get a home and some money I would take my mother out of their care and get her some true help. People do not understand that the food you give a person also affects their pt overall health and they do not understand that those white powedered crack pills are simply cover-ups of the real problem at hand. My mother needs some one to talk to and she needs to go on a specific diet to reverse the illness. But no one hears me...I guess I'll have to wait until I can make them listen...I just hope and pray its not too late.

MethodMan and MJB on WMP: True Amor

A lot of people are claiming to be peaceful and positive but are they just speaking with no action? Are they trying to uplive titles that people have placed besides them....although we are older are we truly any wiser. Could it be that we care so much about titles like philosophical,deep and peaceful that we slaughter our true selfs in order to stay align with these titles? These are things I think about while eating my Multigrain Cheerios ...and ain't nothing deep about that.


i am. thinking.

Give Me LiveForevers Grandmere.

Stadium Status.

stadium status?

Do I wanna blow up?

Show up...

Be like the rest of the no lucks.

I use to be different.

I use to wanna be heard.

use to have a lot of words

to say...

but days and weeks

went and I didn't wanna speak

or teach

I almost don't wanna learn.

People are dirty.

Beautiful sure somewhere in there.

But I can't see past the mask they all wear.

So whats really real and when is fake an option

for copping in

to conformity...

to really boring me.

When we gonna be ourselves.

When are you gonna realize you can't really be free.

You'll always be chained by your thoughts.

And what you thought was you

was really

really....

hey maybe it was you.

i could preach i could teach

be deep

and leech

but I'm through.

im addicted to honey.

man ...

khalifah i miss you.

we were gonna hang so much this fall.

see ya soon*

going on that cleanse..real soon.

lemon.*gucci voice*

A Warning for the Situation Presently Wrapped Up In Time

There is a high probability in the fact that the revolution will infact be televised...





and we will all be in a unhealthy dazed.



Our souls will be sucked from the tube of cathode rays and her pure energy containing atoms of light will be put out like a stone over a small ant.

We will wait in the dark...

We won't push the stone up...

We will not dare uplift ourselves against the oppression and obstacles.

Ha! We laugh at foreign sounds like progression and we even say that our ancestors don't resemble us.

Adversity is sweet sugar diabetic syrups thaat we drench our thoughts in.

We sprinkle it over our souls waiting for the world to get

tastier.

Something we can digest easy.

Not realizing that this is not an appetizer

and these meals are not pleasing.

Are you wide open...



well I suggest you shut em...

And if your blood is flowing then

those veins you should cut them.

Erase your feelings from the world

to embrace the subjectivity of the object at hand

whisper when you speak

make them strain to understand.

only God knows when I will finally finish this book lol

It is OD good too. I just reflect on a lot of the wuotes for a looooongg timee......

Recognizing the good like Jean Valjean and holding the weight like baby birdie , Cosette*

i would drooollll..forever

On one of my many mini conversations with Khalifah we were talking about how I was boycotting FaceBook for a day because of the lewd and disrespectful images they were putting up and naming them as the Prophet Muhammad. In Islam if most are familiar then they would know representations of this kind is the highest degree of disrespect. Being that I have Muslim family members and prior knowledge I supported this group.Then Khalifah went on to tell me that"The world will soon have to drink the poison it has produced.." I understood. But even know I understand a bit more....as days and moments pass...I feel like I am understanding things a bit more.

I am not out to gain all the knowledge of the Earth.But to understand some things although you may not know them, satisfies me.

But yeah Khalifah you are right.

Like Lauryn said," When the rain falls , it does not fall on one man's house..."

My first words

that I want to speak when I see your face

are words that take us to that special place.

Spaces of high and low

would never know,

how much love

could not be measure coming from me.

Pores are pouring

love and light into the air

you exhale a wish

and i'll inhale the fear.

you wanna see the planets

i can take you there

you wanna drift on clouds ...

just run your fingers through my nappy hair.

it's soft

for you.

cause its a hard knock life

its true.

I Love You. Still.

Two Men Killed In Silver Spring, Md. Car Crash

I guess I’ll see you next lifetime…

To all the people in this beautiful Earth..Shapel loves you if no one else does. I guess whatever can be handed simply cannot be taken for granted. The AUC community has just let two big beautiful spirits float on. This hurts a lot but I know it is good for our souls. God is simply reminding us..The Creator is trying to speak to us, and I hope we all listen. “Most Intellects do not believe in God..” but you will fear him all the same.

I know all my loving ones that have passed on from this visual sphere of our world is still here and they are all talking to me and trying to tell me something. Whether it be Shapel its time to come on home or Shapel you have to look… I’m trying to make sense of it all although I do not believe I’ll understand it. But if I can just make sense of it all then I believe I can be somewhat alright and the pain will soon turn to smiles and laughter.

I don’t think its death I’m scared of ..I think it’s the fact that I more than likely won’t know and I will not get the chance to console the hearts of love ones. I really hate to see people pain. But I guess pain is a simply a part of this street we call Life.

Life is a block on the street and death..ha! Death is right around the corner.

But does it all stop at corners?

A block is composed into a square ..Life is just one block. We have corners but then we have another block…and we must continue. We do not stop.

I like circles and all but I love squares. There is more sense and nonsense in squares..

And the power of triangles…I’m still trying to figure out.

A Flash of Great Light

Dearest Khalifah,

What to even say? And then to look on the brighter side although it is so hard to find ..what is there not to say? You were so beautiful. Majestic.Outstanding.Lovely.Funny.Smart.PoliticallyRight.Spiritual.Faithful.Loveable.Kind.Creative. and every other adjective that’s full of light and purpose..they are all you.and so effing soulful…I love you soo much. God knows. The Creator and you can now see my pain… I wish although these wishes are too late or…just in time, I wish we could have hung out more. I wish yesterday wasn’t the last time we spoke. But is it truly the last time we will speak because I still hear you little voice=] I still feel how big you were going to blow up. You like all other greats was set out to change the world. In fact, I think you did. I asked God nicely on June 19^th when Tiana died to please spare me another heartbreak. But the Creator had other plans…plans that no matter how many books I read , how many places I travel, how much money I get, how many materials I possess foolishly…still, I will not understand. You see I was so anxious to read my e-mail of your ideas..and at my job in India I got a chance to go on the computer so I checked and there it was and then I went on Twitter and naturally there was you “@NappyHeadHI – I sent it” but then I looked on FaceBook and all the other tweets and I said dear God PLEASE , not somebody I know. I look in utter confusion and denial at another face that is TOO familiar. You’re going to watch over me I hope. As you ccan see it took me a while to open that e-mail…I’m scared. I’m really scared. I asked God so many times today am I next. If I am I guess its no use in fighting..it’ll be my time but I feel as if I have so much to do. ..but I’m no judge.God Blessyou and your brother…your family is hurting but I know they will be strong. Due to their wishes and due to the light, I shall celebrate your life. Khalifah, I really want you to come back. I really meant I would give both my kidneys for you and Tiana..tell her I said “Hey Girl Hey” lol . Dag. We were both kings lol. Except I was always questionable because I’m a girl. I know both my kidneys can never be enough for the worth of your soul and I guess there is nothing I have that can bribe God..but if I did and if God had one weakness like chocolate or ice cream or a new shirt or something …I’d buy and sell it just for you to come back. Too amazing for words. I’m just thinking of all the things you had planned. But don’t even sweat it. Shapel is definitely go through with your plans. I’ll keep that creativity you always had alive. Those films we were about to collab on…picture them done..and done with love. Cause that’s what I’mma do put so much love and care while keeping it true. Just like you. Khalifah, I’m learning, I’m growing and God I’m loving. Still.

Ps: I’mma see you on the deck realll soon*

I love you and You , Khalifah live inside of me,

Shapel

Dear God,

Am I Next?

Love Anyways,

Shapel.

A Letter To My Sister....

Dear Tiana,

Hey…Wow. So this is the news I get when I’m in India. So much beauty all around me. So much beauty in life. Life…See I promised myself that I wouldn’t be scared of death because I never would know life and all its wonder. But…you’re gone…and I know I’m just a small girl in this world but I still think it was too soon. Did you have to go so fast? I mean we only had small talk every other day. You know what I’m talking about the typical “Hey Girl Hey” the “Hey” with the smile. You always had a smile onJ Remember that time we were both in front of HH and you wanted my cardboard box and I was like huh? And you were like I’m a Lumberjack J and then I was like sure. LOL. You were a good lumberjack that cold Halloween. Dag. I mean you didn’t even start you major. I mean we all just got out of ADW with straight heads lol. See I’m trying to laugh but this really hurts. I’m still young. I’m still trying to understand why people have to go so soon but then I say what is time…I confuse myself a lot. When I saw the tweet and the FaceBook statuses …I said who. But then I saw the face. The pretty beautiful face and my heart broke because I knew there was so much else behind that pretty pretty face. I guess its way too late to request you as a friend now…and its way too late to come visit you on the other side of HH. Dag. Again it took someone going above and throughout the Earth to make me realize that all that nonsense that Hate and that Jealously and that Petty stuff is ignorant and foolish. Cause without notice or a Calendar mark stating that you would be taken away from us on June 19^th 2010, it doesn’t matter. I hope you’re passing into the light allows all of us to unite and love one another for real. I can personally declare that I, Shapel will just let love and pure peace emanate from my being because there is no such thing as a tomorrow. There is only what we remember. I am going to pray for your soul<3>

I love you.

No clichés.

No labels.

No Hate.

Pure Love and Truth.

-Shapel

Now Playing- Rasta Man Chant

Maybe I can be going through a phase but I believe that everyday I am finding myself more in love and more in tune with nature. People make mistakes.But I will stand strong in the belief that nature does no wrong.

I am going to lock my hair in fact I wanted to for a very very long time. I liked short hair but who am I to cut it off every single time it grows ...its a sign... and forget being fashion forward. I mean I'm Shapel in the most un-cocky way. Because I am striving to stay trie to myself I feel thats a style and not a fad or a trend.

But enough on tangents and things....

I really stress the world should consume pure vegetables.

"Man ideally should not eat meat, for to eat meat a life must be taken, an animal must be put to death."

La Roux - In for the Kill

They said we can never reach love but what is love without lust.
I'm going in for the Kill ....


Shapel: but with much peace.

My only question for the moment is why are they out to take me down and under.
Too bad I understand their ways with plunder.
God said Thunder
Plow Pow Pat
Sit Back
and ease ya mind on this track
and take a trek on the trance of this beat
I wonder
and then I wander
as I pondered thoughts of limits named zero.
Rated R.
i guess its real.

*strong believer n if you don't like me naked you'll never like me dressed.

WTFLICK is Shapel Monique?

What is the meaning of Shapel or rather Chappelle. Not Dave (more on that later...)

My grandfather on my mother's side named me... Shapel and my mother just adored the name Monique.

This is La Sainte-Chapell

Shapel (Chapel) or more commonly Chappelle means lives near a church. In France, there is a structure called La Sainte-Chapelle. This 13th-century chapel is called the most beautiful building in France for its architecture and stained glass. This building was like a precious reliquary. Some refer to it as the a keepsake for the spiritual. Because of the beautiful stainglass, when one enters inside the structure they can witness the beautiful colors produced by the light.

A feeling of God and the celestial is felt when one is inside...you feel as if you are standing in pure soul.

As for Monique, it is a variant of Mona: madonna meaning wise. It is a French derivation of the name Monica meaning the advisor. How funny...

So this is all I have for the name Shapel and the name Monique.

By the way I love this guy..

so I will say Shapel like Dave <3

oh and how could I forget....

This is Shapel Monique.

It seems as if they are all on a footrace in the business of seeing who can make me cum first. I don't think I want to be in a relationship as of yet but its something inside of me that is begging to have a companion. Not exactly suffocated with the presence of this person but a reminder of the sheer illusion that someone is there...and they are there for me. Unselfishly I am theirs.

So please if someone happens to see me and read this or even feels this. Holla at a G.

I want a dog.
=]

RUFF.

"Don't stress that Kid its not in your bloodstream."

I am devoting some time to the study of Marijuana, Tribal Art and Rastafari Movement.
I shall return but please stay in tune with worldy events and www.bekumfall.com

peace&blessings,
love.

i'm about to mess up fashion.

watch.

or better yet wait...

Logged On June 6th 2010

With my head held HI
I will say this , I am not like them but we are one in the same.
I respect my spirit and I live up to my name.
Shapel I Are.
and I will continue to be
even when these chemicals in the air be trying to erase me.
You can chase me
but I'm no where running-
Far from your ideas
because I guess I'm a cloudy dust in your mind
I guess I'm a preaching tape so please unwind
and rewind your thoughts back to a place where life was
Well I can't cause Life is now.
But thats another note
about limitless zeros and HIlife pipes
puff puff tote
but don't pass it to me unless it purity
clarity
put in there in me
deeper than any man could ever lay his 2-12 inches
and better than the satisfaction of dissing all you-
i'll never curse you out
cause thats the first step to dragging my self down
Can I be Captain Obvious? Yes You Can they say.
More cliques than a band of chicks
and not chic at all
just click and clack clucking
like ducks and wagons and remote controls
but no buttons
virutally you are journeying no where
and I know nothing
but this something that you think you elevating to
is simply depreciating your soul
and leaving you feeling heavy but its not gold
its not lead
and you are perhaps using to much of your head and not enough heart
because you think you are free
and you constantly repeat this
in syallbles of
one two three
can freedom come that easy?
lets bask some more in worldy pleasures cause of course that is what pleases me.
and this is what life is all about?
right here right now.
but let me say one thing before you nod off,
it may be right here and right now
but i left there and now was always this thing of the past.
Now, is really a moment ago.
So living life so whimsy and "free" as you can go
is what I would like to take to defy because
quite frankly,
i've never been status quo.
but i'm predictable.

saying india is beautiful is not enough...in fact coming here to witness it all is still not enough. maybe this is a dream...but then the mosquitos bite me and remind me of paradise and mr.roy's family is so loving<3. i'm happy*

Personalize funny videos and birthday eCards at JibJab!

The Intruders - I Wanna Know Your Name (stereo)

Hey, where do you live
Where do you live, baby
I'd like to take you home
What do I have to give
What do I have to give
To call you on the phone..

What happened to music like this where everything was in tune and so oh so smooth. I wanna know your name type of days and times where people where truly adored.

DeBarge - Time Will Reveal

this makes me wanna hold hands and spin around a million times...

Thank Thank You.

Thank You. Thank You

I am really hi tonight,

really hi tonight....

Maybe its this St. John Wort that has me all happy and stuff. I don't smoke Weed but I am on a lot of herbs. So I guess I am somewhat influenced. I'm on all types of herbs down from Cranberry powder, Artichoke,Wild Yam and Ginseng etc. LOL. I have to go to the Health Store and buy some more thing-a-lings or N-D-AHHHHHHHHHH<3

I'll be back with my Delhi Belly =\

give me water.

Can anybody tell me the road to Nazareth?
I just need a place where I can lay my head.......

As bad as I wanted it. I'm happy they way it turnt out..I guess its for the better and all that good stuff in life. A part -actually I knew this was going to happen. Is it my pessimistic energy or maybe its my hopes up too high , and allthis time I thought that was where its suppose to be.

Who am I anymore ..I have a Twitter for Gesh sakes!
I suppose God knows how bad I wanted that boy! But then again I've said that before and maybe I didn't really like him ,or maybe this is where I'm suppose to be

DMX - How's It Goin' Down

Shapel's Life, Welcome. Well not this graphic...actually not at all. But I love this song!

yum.

yum.

Hold Yuh- Gyptian

is such a lullaby.

It makes me happy in my feet and soul.

how come i'm always in Bliss.

Right Now.

These pink flowers got me feeling light
And these yellow flowers are most
vivid at night.
Shopping bags of commercial material
And aftertaste of honey nut cheerios.
What are we running to on a treadmill of time
And after all is said and done
You could have been mine
And we should have been divine
Better yet in line
With moons and planets and stars
But I is and you are
We be
On a seesaw
Down and up
And then spiral in the air
We be there
Instead of here
Right now
Left the ground
With our hearts in the clouds
But no heavenly kiss
No spinetingling bliss
Just would of dismissed
And dished to disney
For their new fairytale
Love don't cost a thing
But ours was on ebay for sale.
To the highest bidder
Kind of let off on the slide
Who auctioned it off in pride
And took my vibrating cries
You're feeling it
They're stealing it-


And we be steady mobbin.

Centaurs , nymphs and goblins
Gobbling up my dreams
Making me lean
but I can't push my knees to the dirt
and as much as it hurts
I can't conform to the work
of evil.
So much to learn if
I open me up.
So much to learn if
I open me up.
It takes a year to grow older as far as people know
but it takes a moment to make a decision between stop and go.
So i'm going
on and on
on and on
drums beating
flutes beaming
strong and strong
catch me if -i was running

cause I'm not.
I'mma just scratch my head and bop my legs to this NYC beat.
and when I look down at my feet
make sure its still a ground
cause with all these sounds
sometimes i look up for you ,
and you're not even around.


damn.

Thrills and Frills 5-21

Dear Drama , Peace I tried to bring to you lately but frankly you never was the type to hear it Realization you kind of feared it. I've been running in pentagons of desirable lust but I started to slow down when I saw my soul was getting rust between the wet dreams and the sunshine through the cracks and between me laughing loud and making funny rapping tracks. I spoke to your cousin Unhappiness and he tried to sway and swoon me into his pretty little arms but you know Shapel is all shallow and I saw the traces and cuts of his unfulfilled promises. And like a damsel in layaway I'm trying to hustle and get stacks for paydays Cause I just have to have it I see it. I FB like button it and grab it. Then I try to understand it. My biggest mistake and then I listen to the world try to tell me I'm fake but is this life even real Not when Aiyana Jones got killed while laying on her couch counting sheeps and slaughtered meat as her body gave out her soul gone for better and this policeman is just another trendsetter on the extermination of the youth and without cooth or home training we can't band together so i probably won't know what you're saying my brother my sister i missed ya you passed me by and i sit on the train and everything comes but no why no tears -i can't cry just dry sandpaper wishes of cleaning up yesterday's glitches and healing tomorrow from all of last year's stiches So Drama I know you wanna text me you probably wanna sex me but I only mess with lighter loads and from what I'm told you looking kind of heavy Hefty tie you up and Swif thee. After this letter I want you to stay away from here cause this back and forth like a rocking chair is kind of weared and played out PS3 consoles still not a player i'm gamed out. Although you'll catch me single remember I'm not alone and if see my friends or me just act like I don't have a phone. I'm gone to a place where you don't get along Love and Happiness like Al Green's song now you can get plastic surgery if you wanna come through but then you would be fake so I guess its really no room for you.. That Girl You Liked to Come Around Every Now and Then aka I'm not your friend =], Shapel

Owen Pallett - Lewis Takes Off His Shirt

this makes me tap my feet in unison [:

The Oath..

check www.bekumfall.com.

♫ Alicia Keys Unthinkable (written by Drake) lyrics ♪

So I'm in Love.

with life, with love, with new opportunites,with traveling,with it....all.

Lauryn Hill - Adam Lives in Theory/Interlude 1 (2/15)

oh yeah and i miss the auc but i'll be back sooner than i think....i have india and _________________________ on my mind. hehaw.

oh man I think I'm in love again,

this is such a pretty widdle dawg.

<3>

give me=]

Needs money. UGH
i don't want to be a stick up kid.
Great another mobile phone call please no more technology...

Orange Juice & Fol Chen.

This room here in NY s a hot mess. I am missing furniture and bedroom items. I have to find a way to convince my Grandma I need this stuff. Yikes =\

oh

and I think I want to have a person to call at 12:05am and not talk about politics =)

to the Most High I'll promise I'll do better. Get me through , one more time please? <3>

right now i am unofficially a sophmore.
thanks.

Even If You Wake Up

This is how I feel.

I've felt something very similar.

Is this good or bad?

There is only the question.

Please everyone donate money to the "Shapel wants to go to BoraBora". It would be greatly appreciated and highly looked upon...lol.

I am an Animal

Rawr Moo

No Cannibals

Crackers

Not Wacker

than your Average

you hearty Beverage

Here quench your thirst

helium

I might burst

If i rise 2 centimeters

over

and I got hot fuzz

like between sofas

and carpets

roll em out

rain

Sponge Bob drout

cause the light I soak it

and everythings all funny

but i'm for serious

I ain't jokin'

Blue Trucks with Red Stripes.

The boy I loved the most left me at the post.
Tell them to send me by Ground
7 days - 5 days
cause I'm guessing love was a Business
that I had no Business
getting myself into.
Truly
Fed Up
with posting my feelings out there
for someone to stamp it out and say
Return to sender
cause there has been an error
that left me taking a deeper look into the mirror
and inside of my soul
because I was told
there was always going to be someone for everyone
but i guess i'm nobody
and you were meant to remind me of that fact
But what do I lack
as an image of things filled with love and life
how could my head hang low
WHY DOES THE WORLD MOVE SO SLOW.
or maybe its me moonwalking
on Jupiter
and honestly I haven't hear of anything more stupider
wait
i lied
those few times
you said
i love you too.

There was always a question hanging over you.
Thats what I hear in my head everyday , actually ever second I hear the voices telling me something but I just can't make it out yet.

My Mother.

Love her.

First picture all the way on the right

Last picture all the way on the left

=]

This little monster is my GodDaughter: Yoso.

I love her.

and all her chubby ness.

<3

This little monster is my GodDaughter: Yoso.

I love her.

and all he chubby ness.

<3

So today in my room, or this mess of a room I decided to create something. You can call it:" Ditty Flap! on a Playlist Dedicated to Agbogo Kalu and Clarke Randolph."

Here it is: